November 5, 2007

Last week I had the most thorough examinations at one time since I have been in the hospital.  I had a PET scan a CT scan and a biopsy of the lymph node in my neck.  I feel small amounts of pain all over my body.  I wonder if it cancer or just something else.  I will find out today when I meet with the Doctor.

November 14, 2007

I found out that the lymph nodes in my neck are cancerous and that the doctor is going to change my chemotherapy regimen.  I meet with him again today to determine when it will begin.  If it does not begin until November 26th then I have the opportunity to go to North Carolina and celebrate Thanksgiving down there.  At least my mother will be able to see me in a relatively healthy state.  My hair has grown back and I feel relatively good.  She lost many people to cancer. Her mother, husband, sister, brother and a sister-in-law.  She thinks I am going to die.

November 21, 2007

One thing to note when you are undergoing Cancer treatment is that things can change in an instance.  I am now in the hospital getting prepared for another Cancer regiment.  This time it is not the Hyper C Vad or the Nyralabyne but ESHAP.  One of the doctors just came in my room and told me that this regiment is more likely to wipe me out more and it will cause more nausea than the hyper c.  That was a tough pill to swallow.  Up to this point I have not had a really big issue with nausea and I have not really been fatigued since the first round of chemotherapy.  I felt stronger than ever when I first came into the hospital.  My faith was at an 11 on a scale of 1-10.  My faith is still high but I am just a little concerned at this point.  I think what is really important to me is that I have the ability to do normal daily tasks, and enjoy eating.  However, this may have a different effect on me.  On a good note, however, I have responded really well to the other chemotherapy treatments.  I may do well with this one and surprise the doctors like I have been for the last few months.  God is on my side and he will see me through this.  I have so much to be thankful for and I have faith that I will make it through this and see many more years.  I am not going to dwell on the side effects.  What I can be hopeful about is that this regiment clears up the new lymph nodes in my neck.

November 24, 2007

Today is Saturday, and I have been in the hospital since Wednesday. Thanks to God I have not had any ill side-effects.  Ayanna came by with Emma on Thanksgiving and brought me some food which was nice.  She has not been back because she needs to find someone to watch Emma since she cannot come to the room during flu season.  I am blessed to be in the hospital receiving care. It will be six months in a couple of weeks since I began treatment.